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I used to run...

I used to run. I used to run two hours nearly everyday along the river by my old apartment. Before I met my husband,I ran anywhere I needed to go and could get to on foot. This was not something I would have ever done in my home town. For one, even if I ran for an hour from my highschool home, I'd never reach anything more than a gas station or cow pasture. But also because the idea of someone seeing my sweat dripping, red face huffing along the side of the road terrified me enough to stay inside and watch tv and eat microwave popcorn instead of even think about exercise.

Moving to Japan gave me a new perspective. Long out of high school and far from the kids who spat at me during p.e., I was finally in a culture that embraces sweat. The students I taught at school encouraged me to get out and move. They were ecstatic that I was red faced and out of breath when I accidentally ran into then on my runs through the neighbourhood. It was a very different cultural perspective on a plus sized woman tackling her own body. Running gave me inner strength I never learned was there, because the mentality I was brought up with taught me that if I was big, it was my fault, and therefore I was too weak to do anything.Japan taught me that I am strong enough to pull passt my weight and keep going.

But I can't run like I did back then.  I've also learned something else while here. That my running was actually destroying my body. Due to an injury to my spine, my body secretly started to degrade as I started to feel stronger inwardly. As I  lost weight, gained confidence and looked better, I felt more pain and fatigue than ever. This is an actual image of my spine. One of my discs has all but withered away. Running for exercise, for strength, is not possible anymore. It's now time to focus on gaining real strength in my muscles. After injury and pregnancy and being hit by a car, giving birth, breaking my ankle and now raising three children, I'm more determined than ever to build myself up. I used to run nearly everyday, but now I'm looking to run every day, head first into my life and tackle my body and all it's problems. I will run every single day, even if my body can't run like it did before. But first, I've got to learn how to exercise, how to strength build, how to fit this life into my life.

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Tomuu
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Wow! That's quite a story and quite a lot of courage! Go you!

Your determination is inspiring. I might just start running as well, especially now that using my weak ankles as an excuse seems woefully inadequate.

Good luck on the run!

JTsuzuki

@JTsuzuki I've found chasing my one year old around for 30 mins is perfect cardio haha! But seriously though making time for exercise is hard. But it's so good for the body. I hope you can find something you enjoy doing even if it's not running.

edthethe

@edthethe I walk a lot, and have since I moved here. Now I also pokewalk when I can (because I do love the pokemon go) and with my toddler heading to school in a few weeks, I'm looking forward to having a bit more time to mess with my cheap 100 yen store free weights without little hands trying to grab them and swing them into the TV or computers.

Exercise is important, I agree! So is sanity!

JTsuzuki

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kcsantosh

@JTsuzuki pokemon go sounds like a lot of fun! I have yet to get into it, but I've thought about going on a pokehunt with my daughter because she plays.

edthethe

@kcsantosh Thanks so much!! Motivation is the biggest part of getting out and doing something.

edthethe

@edthethe That is a great idea! I've started bonding with one of my students over Pokemon thanks to this game. It's silly but fun, and gave me lots of incentive to get out of the house this winter.

JTsuzuki

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